Current Situation

treading water

you have to

the current will flush you away

 

two steps forward

lose your breathe

you fall back

further down stream

 

treading again

stronger now

determined to get back there

to where hope floats

 

strong at first

head above the water

higher than before

and then

it slowly falls

 

your head

weighs countless worry

it drains you

you keep treading

but you are so tired

 

again, you have to rest

you let go

you fall back

close enough to see

that any farther is too far

 

you gain strength

you set out again

treading against the current

against the world it seems

 

head not so high

gloom rests there

you can’t keep this up

you don’t want to give in

 

you want to see what is next

you want to get up stream

you want to get through this

 

you are on your own

you need help

who do you ask

there is no one there

 

don’t give up

you talk to yourself now

 

but your mind says

give in

just go

maybe its better

somewhere else

 

so you let go

you stop fighting the current

and you flush away

 

it’s fast

it’s painless

it’s easier than anything

you have ever done.

Lost: Mickey Mouse

i have a hole in my heart
my body and my soul
he is my best friend

I wonder who is hurting more
me or him

he’s all alone out there
i am safe in here

he didn’t mean for this to happen
curious kitten

i want you to know, my little baby
i love you as much as a child
and i miss you
you were my missing link
my unconditional love
my loyal friend.

i am so sorry
please come home
let me help you find your way
stay strong and brave

i will find you and bring you home
and when i do
my life will be complete again

until then, know i love you so very much
you are special
one of a kind
nothing can keep you from me

come home –
i’ll be waiting.