K10ishHelp me to understand -
and this is not a demand
but i want to rationalize
what i see or don’t see in your eyes.
it’s complicated and a part of you
why you treat me, sometimes, how you do
i love you completely, with all my heart
so how you can ignore and reject me, tares me apart
i fear for numbness, as caring or asking about you makes you mad
you tell me go to away, do something else, as if I was the one who is bad
as i write this i ask myself do i treat you like this and if i ever do
i don’t think so, but wish i had or could, then it wouldn’t just be you
that doesn’t make me better and in fact this is why i ask
who is this person that appears too often and without a mask.
as strong as I am, and as much as i keep trying
this behavior is damaging and i have stopped crying.
the numbness sets in and i stay the same
caring and loving and asking; am i to blame?
in conclusion i don’t think that i like feeling numb
i don’t like it, it’s not a good sign but i don’t want to run
expressing and communicating it’s something we know
listening and working on stuff, helps us to grow.
so whatever it is that’s been in the middle of us
me, my love and my admiration, these you can trust.
if it’s nothing and this ’is what it is’ then just show me it’s really so
when you say nothing and your action say something, I want turn and go.
